The Difference Engine

by Damim

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released September 17, 2007

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Track Name: The Difference Engine
Out of ordinary perception
Mortal words appear animal
Obsessed: fixated on survival
Notions that languish in the folds

Inhuman worlds are shaken
A few timeless hours - outer inner realms
Directly apprehended, unconditionally
This experience is mine

Boredom - what's your excuse?
So shaped in the hearths our lives
Your eyes through others
For a beat out of time

You listen

Through fields of the world every night
The implacable voice of unreason
Of the same alien doubt
Enduring, demonic, human

Possessed

It speaks

Disturbs me
Open my eyes
Feel the absurd spectre

Examine
Thoughts of one's own death - of demise
That will not be mentioned

Fear - prepare to re-enter
Tectonic shifting sum
Fleeting
Fever reeling - turning higher

Persistence of false memory
Stare us into the deep dark void
Un-constricting reality
Fed on the ashes of what I thought was a lie

Fevered
Pre-scient illusion struggling
Infused with meaning beyond reach

Sublime the catharsis required
Feeding the illusion
Keep the mind away
From what mattered

Until there was no difference
Between laughter and weeping
Between the nodes of his chain
Of desperate moments
Between laughter and weeping
More real than the sun
Track Name: Eyeballing
No will to live, Dream, defy
Loathsome husk
Of what I thought I knew - shadow
A shell

Churned with dread - abject beast
Expunged, thrown

From Moloch passed down - spurious
Into a tomb of existence - delirious

Aching out for you
Always, always
Always been another
Slowly climb
Cycle into the spiral
From despair into mania
The end you'll never

I've achieved that high
Feeding the beasts of time
See through darkness shine

I'm boiling inside of you
With all my strength I struck
And felt the blow
Craving for life
Surging scheming

From birth until your death
Moloch turns fertile futile

Far too close to your contempt
Passed down, grotesque
What you hid so well

Legacy of the absent God
Founder abandoned
To the medium you'll grow

To kill for you
Always been - always been another
Part of you
Fantasy that you don't know
Reckless, reckless
Reckless

Find the answer to these prayers
Learn in the fire
Realising what was said
Edges me further
Moving on from where you failed
When you should have died
Track Name: Outside
This evil burns me up, consumes me
Swallows me whole
And destroys the light that
Makes everything pure
Outside

A weeping echo of hate soon fades
Amongst the crumbling ruins
Of my shattered coherence

Bleeding, slowly churning onwards
Nightmares unbind
The turning threads of life
Demise of an identity
Moulting into obscure, tortuous convolutions

Locking into me
Throughout my chemistry
This wrath just waiting
Eager to devour

Outside
My saddened soul is noticing
Decay and carelessness
Ploughing wrinkles into the face
Of humanity
Turning
Turning all true will to age
Turning all will to destruction
As we all indulge in one last dance
Towards extinction

Sweet melancholy madness still finds
A tragic beauty to this decaying ensemble
As I reminisce upon the fallen beauty of the past
Its feelings fallen forever
To the starving void of time

Outside
Track Name: Mirror-Image Ritual
I'm becoming further distracted from a view
As if I were ensconced in an evil dream
A prisoner of the accurate articulate inherent
Deceptive
Limitations of reasoning

So - you foster doubt
As to who you are what it's about
Where we came from

What if this is it?
This parody of the human spirit
We follow through

Aghast in the machine
Trapped in the semblance of a dream
Of what he took

Transcendental religious experience
Examine the precarious sutures of reality
When you enter the prison of the mind
The same world and again you will be

Wilful spurious yearning for another

Alien distortion possessing the body
Witness the voice in abhorrent dimensions
Subdue and transform obscene agency

The toll of pain endure the face
In time's illusion
Entranced in future visions bleak

Their blade scars echoes in our sleep

Remember as you enter
Into the age of affliction
The purpose of the will
Is to triumph in adversity

Ritual
Of the mirror image
Of the mirror act
Of the mirror of man
Track Name: Made Of Beasts
Building the future with our fists and hate
Disturbed by talking heads that speak for us
Enter the brave new age of the martyr
Cabled, televised

Frontiers of civilisations
And arena disappear
In an era of the unfettered voyeur
The clamour crows

Cowards
Determined
Intrusive
To defile

Desensitised by neural lords of mass isolation
Wielding power without control
Surrender to an insidious apathy
Sex class racial savagery
Of cruel and ridicule

Slaughter of man
Honoured time and time again
Skin tout over bones
Of agony

The lie
The churning of the mind
Infuse the I

Ready to create or perpetrate
The new totalitarian ideals
Perpetuated myth will die
Just like any other meme
Made of beasts
Track Name: Gangrene, Purulence, Impact
Fire - Combustion: a process, a weapon, and a tool
Hate - the angst that brings my blood to boil
The refuge and agony of fools

Termination of lucidity
Poisoning everything
Regression

Turning to the sign of the cross
Frightened delusion of sanctity
Burning the sign of the cross
Heightened illusion of superiority

In you - soon entomb

Betrayal of traits that unify
Betrayal of giving in
For god to even your scores
To a sadistic suffering
Icon of flesh

What if your crime
Polluting innocent minds
Reached another low?
Are you too idle or too thick to deal
With the complexities of what is real?

Ill? Insane?
Vomiting memes:
Gangrene of the mind

Screaming for a beyond
So desolate within
Petrified to the core

Staring into the illusion
Screaming for a beyond
Desperate, never giving in
Incoherent

Bleed for the infinite mercy of god
In the staring faces of those who died
In the faces of dead
Icons of flesh
Track Name: A Wound That Never Heals
Mire of slime
Cancerous purulent goitre
Malnourished souls
Festering pustule lingering sore

Tired of hysterical dream
Of what this all could mean
Gather relish the death
Remaining secrets never kept

Oblivious to what is yet
Future sentience bitterness
Slogans stridently
Out of the grotesque concrete
Boiling blaring

Heinous and total war
Polarise tyrannise
Hone your ideology
No place for doubt or hesitation

Only global holocaust can appease this monster
Shacking unimaginable truth replaces reality

Disguised in the guise of justice
Holy war is the new rock'n'roll

Nazis, feminists
Extremely catholics
Haredim, panthers and homicide brothers
Right/left-wing lawyers
Funded capitalists
Gay righteous activists
Newspeak communists
Fascists, crypto-fascists, neo-fascists
Atheists, creationists
Bible-bashing cartoonists
Ready for the war grinder
All throw their oil on the fire

Nobody gives their life for a cause
It is torn away
Torn

Echoing through desolate ruins
Of recurring nightmares
After the fact no one cares
For the children of this world of hate
Track Name: New Quest
(Instrumental)
Track Name: This Has Nothing to do With Apathy
I call a saviour to fight
And make sense of me
I've run out of reason
The amber flickers

All the years I've only seen this way
Roaring hearts in the fire of what might have been

I am not worthless - this is not
A cry for help
Nor is it a phase
I am going through

It's freezing inside
What am I doing?
Who are you here for?
Why are we dying?
Where were we?

All my life I've had this void to fill
Blended in with the clouds or buried within
Vain attempts to fight the entropy
Gleaming all of the fire of might yet be

It matters not
If it lasts
Only for an instant
As real as we will ever be
Sleep
Sleep
Sleep with me